Sweet Dreams & Hectic Days

Sometimes you wonder when will life start settling down so you can rest...who's with me? Well the sad thing is it won't...life will never settle down. We shouldn't want it to either. When we stop living life and enjoying every hectic moment of it is when you know that you have stopped living. Enjoy the good with the bad because without those you would never know what greatness is. This are the thoughts of a wondering one AMers insomniac mind. Sweet Dreams and Hectic Days :)

Thank God For Idiot Drivers :)

To me driving is kind of like putting my mind on autopilot unless I am in a hurry of course :) Well on the way home from base tonight it was one of those kind of nights click...it's on okay yup the person in front of me is driving like an idiot but hey whatever I'm heading home. Someone was pulled off to the right with the blinker flashing right after a huge curve not very smart but we easily avoided them because it was late.  The thought flashed through my mind and probably the driver in front of me as well if they needed help. We each slowed down a little not quite going the speed limit. Then I checked back in the rear view a few times and saw they were back on the road nothing seemed wrong. I figured they must of pulled off to take a call since you can't drive and talk on the phone here. Even though it was probably the worst possible spot to do so...heading down the hill now five over the speed limit. My car got a little ahead of itself so I decided to slow down when WHAM out of nowhere I see a doe run in front of my car I slammed on the breaks and swerved to the right so I wouldn't hit her. Mysteriously enough the car passing almost at the exact same time missed her as well. My heart is still thudding in my chest. The thought of just a few seconds earlier or later and it could of ended badly. It is amazing to me how God works...those things that annoy us like "the idiot drivers" or that "evil red light" that made you late there is all a reason behind it. My mom said later "Your front end of your car would of been totaled" I continued to tell her "Mom that's what insurance is for and I don't care about my car any way I'm just glad that deer didn't die". I continued to thank God for not letting me or that other driver hit that deer. Not to mention I probably would have been a hot mess of tears for killing Bambi's mom! People have been severely injured from hitting deer or trying to miss them. Not to mention who wants to think about those poor little Bambi's in the woods all alone. At least I know that there is one tonight who has their momma :):) 

Thank God for Husbands :')

Overwhelming. The understatement of the last two weeks. Time has flown by at an endless speed never slowing down. Sleepless. Stressful and filled with an empty misery. I know that it happened for a reason but yet it still hurts. Painful and empty inside. My brain can't wrap myself around what is happening between life that is going on and where I've ended up, at a stopping standstill. I don't want to eat or sleep or when I do sleep I just want to sleep forever. Everything takes forever for me to accomplish and thought processes are quite difficult to complete. I've got too much on my plate entirely and not nearly enough people to support me through this time but the one light at the end of the tunnel is my amazing other half. He is supporting me. He is happy with the decisions I am making. Even though we are far apart he is making a very conscious effort to support me through this really hard point in my life. I am so thankful for the man that has stepped up to hold my hand. There are sooo many words that I could use to describe the many ways he has been there for me. I think that tonight we had one of the best conversations, understanding wise, that we have had in such a long time. I feel like he really understood how I felt and where I was coming from. I am so grateful God put him in my life :) I am also so glad that He is helping him understand where I'm coming from at such a trying time. For now this will be one of the last blogs for a lil bit until I get my bearings. I hope everyone else is having a blessed new year so far....

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Unfortunately I will not be able to get on here much. I am just SWAMPED! I'm taking three eight week courses this semester and it is kicking my butt already! I am pretty sure my life is now over...I've given it up for a Master's in Psychology and now all I'm going to have time for is papers oh and yeah more papers too by the way! I am however loving it so far...I'll get back to you when finals roll around in 7 weeks... Hope this all finds you loving your busy hectic lives as well. Talk to you all soonish...I HOPE! :)