Revel in the Irresponsibility

There are always surprises when visiting the airport. I swear you think you know what will happen and bam it is different! I saw all the traffic when we came in and I was like oh man here we go...I'm going to get lost and it's going to take foreverrr to get checked in. Boy was I wrong! It was a breeze to check in and it only took maybe 5 minutes to go through security and all that jazz... Now I have to wait forever lol but eh you know if I would of been a little later it would of taken forever. Oh man I'm sooo excited to go home and see all my family and friends. Even if its just to be lazy while I am there I'll take it since hubs has left it has been nutssssss busy all the time with no chances to breath. I am going to take advantage of this time to relax and enjoy some me time! Thats right everyone I said me time...I'm going to be the irresponsible one for once and just kick back and not worry! Oh just the though of it is wonderful! Now when I say irresponsible I don't mean reckless just so everyone knows. :) Hope everyone has an amazing Christmas and a Happy New Years! :):) I'm going to go read my book and not a school book for once ohh the thought mhmmm I could revel in it!

Dang you did good Kid

I went into this deployment with the mindset that it was going to be the worst time of my life. However, I have somehow managed to keep it all together. I have met some new people..went out with people I barely knew and just relaxed. It has been nice to venture out and explore my own. I once was asked if I disliked my own company because all the time I was wanting to be with people. The funny thing was that no I don't and to want to never be by yourself is quite silly especially if you enjoy your own company. That made me have a new outlook on things. This new perspective has been amazing I have done things that I normally wouldn't do and have been more busy these past weeks than I ever would of thought imaginable. The time has flown by and I'm content with things. Now don't get me wrong I do miss my husband dearly but I know that during this time I can develop my oneness. I can experience new things and take on the world in a new light.


I'm excited that I have this new way of viewing the world. It isn't all doom and gloom of being apart from my other half and best friend but yet something new that I have yet to experience. I am going to revel in this new part of my life and hopefully grow in ways I never thought I was able to as a person. I have been through really rough patches but I have made it through. Each patch is added to my giant quilt of my life and each one is unique in the obstacles I have had to overcome to achieve that patch. I can't wait to look back when I'm 80 and say "dang you did good kid".

Five Factor Model Results of Me!

This test is based on the idea that five main dimensions are necessary and sufficient for broadly describing human personality.
The Results!!!
The test that you have just taken is based on the Five Factor Model of personality. There is a broad consensus amongst personality theorists that this model, which describes five major 'domains' or traits, is the best current description of the structure of personality. The five major dimensions, and your scores on them, are described below. Try to interpret your results on the basis of the overall pattern, rather than just concentrating on particular scores.

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Factor I : Extraversion (AKA Surgency)

This trait reflects preference for, and behavior in, social situations. People high in extraversion are energetic and seek out the company of others. Low scorers (introverts) tend to be more quiet and reserved. Compared to other people who have taken this test, your score on this dimension (41) is relatively high.

Factor II : Agreeableness (AKA Friendliness)

This trait reflects how we tend to interact with others. People high in agreeableness tend to be trusting, friendly and cooperative. Low scorers tend to be more aggressive and less cooperative. Compared to other people who have taken this test, your score on this dimension (30) is relatively high.

Factor III : Conscientiousness (AKA Will or Dependability)

This trait reflects how organized and persistent we are in pursuing our goals. High scorers are methodical, well organized and dutiful. Low scorers are less careful, less focussed and more likely to be distracted from tasks. Compared to other people who have taken this test, your score on this dimension (39) is relatively high.

Factor IV : Neuroticism

This trait reflects the tendency to experience negative thoughts and feelings. High scorers are prone to insecurity and emotional distress. Low scorers tend to be more relaxed, less emotional and less prone to distress. Compared to other people who have taken this test, your score on this dimension (23) is about average.

Factor V : Openness (AKA Culture or Intellect)

This trait reflects 'open-mindedness' and interest in culture. High scorers tend to be imaginative, creative, and to seek out cultural and educational experiences. Low scorers are more down-to-earth, less interested in art and more practical in nature. Compared to other people who have taken this test, your score on this dimension (26) is about average.


Now I feel that this is quite accurate to who I am..I answered in complete honesty...If you want to take this test to you can at:
http://www.personalitytest.org.uk/

Irony.

It is quite ironic when you have such a serene song playing on repeat in your head and you feel way less than serene. I feel quite awful today but I know it will eventually go away if I could ever go to sleep! I hope everyone is having a blissful day so far and I know that even though it is Monday it is no more awful than every other Monday and it is one step closer to Friday!! Can I get an ohhhh Yeeahhh? They say that the absolute truth is what you make of it. My absolute truth today is that although I feel like death this truth shall pass and I will not feel like death at a later point in time...internalizing these things and looking from the outsiders perspective is quite wonderful. My question I leave you with is what is your absolute truth about today?

Car Good News and Oak Harbor Hillbillies

Who knew that selling a car private party seller would be so complicated!?! So good news is I might have a buyer for my car...more details to follow! I've decided that until hubs is back from his deployment I shall drive around the hillbilly looking truck..mhhhmmm why of course! I have to fit in don't I?! A few requirements to fit in around here are:

(Random Facts About Oak Harbor, WA)

1. Must never wear makeup in public
2. Never shave your face...yes ladies too hahaha
3. Hair brush isn't in your vocabulary. What are these things you speak of I know not what this is!
4. You must own a shirt with a bear on it with the words "Best US State Washington" no name brands please!
5. Homeless people make more than working class by panhandling outside Walmart
6. You choose to hitchhike when there are free buses on the island!
7. You must believe it is far to drive to the other side of town even though it only takes 15 mins tops!
8. If the light is red for more than 1 minute you must become disgruntled.

I shall keep you all posted on what is going on with the whole care buying dealio. One must first decide if car is sold before viewing perspective prospects of new cars hmmmmmmmmmmmm I'm thinking Volvo..or perhaps a Subaru....decisions decisions. Until next time my fun fan crew :)

♥ An Irish Blessing ♥

"May the road rise up to meet you, may the wind be ever at your back. May the sun shine warm upon your face and the rain fall softly on your fields. And until we meet again, May God hold you in the hollow of his hand." ♥ An Irish Blessing ♥

The Thing.....

We all went to go see the movie the thing tonight it was pretty crazy. No spoiler alert here if you haven't seen the original but it was really good we enjoyed it! I hope everyone had an amazing Thanksgiving and an even better Christmas coming up here within the next month! All I have to say is could you imagine if there was an alien like the one in the thing ohhhhhhhh man wicked creepy!!!! gahhhhhhhhh.

Do I ever ask you to believe what I do? No... Do I ever question as you believe? No...
It is amazing how far people will go to bash the things you believe in...it is sad to what lengths they will push your buttons...but in the end I don't care because I know that I will go to a magnificent city...

Revelation 21

A New Heaven and a New Earth

¹ Then I saw “a new heaven and a new earth,”^[a] for the first heaven and the first earth had passed away, and there was no longer any sea. ² I saw the Holy City, the new Jerusalem, coming down out of heaven from God, prepared as a bride beautifully dressed for her husband. ³ And I heard a loud voice from the throne saying, “Look! God’s dwelling place is now among the people, and he will dwell with them. They will be his people, and God himself will be with them and be their God. ⁴ ‘He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death’^[b] or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away.”

⁵ He who was seated on the throne said, “I am making everything new!” Then he said, “Write this down, for these words are trustworthy and true.”
⁶ He said to me: “It is done. I am the Alpha and the Omega, the Beginning and the End. To the thirsty I will give water without cost from the spring of the water of life. ⁷ Those who are victorious will inherit all this, and I will be their God and they will be my children. ⁸ But the cowardly, the unbelieving, the vile, the murderers, the sexually immoral, those who practice magic arts, the idolaters and all liars—they will be consigned to the fiery lake of burning sulfur. This is the second death.”

The New Jerusalem, the Bride of the Lamb

⁹ One of the seven angels who had the seven bowls full of the seven last plagues came and said to me, “Come, I will show you the bride, the wife of the Lamb.” ¹⁰ And he carried me away in the Spirit to a mountain great and high, and showed me the Holy City, Jerusalem, coming down out of heaven from God. ¹¹ It shone with the glory of God, and its brilliance was like that of a very precious jewel, like a jasper, clear as crystal. ¹² It had a great, high wall with twelve gates, and with twelve angels at the gates. On the gates were written the names of the twelve tribes of Israel. ¹³ There were three gates on the east, three on the north, three on the south and three on the west. ¹⁴ The wall of the city had twelve foundations, and on them were the names of the twelve apostles of the Lamb.

¹⁵ The angel who talked with me had a measuring rod of gold to measure the city, its gates and its walls. ¹⁶ The city was laid out like a square, as long as it was wide. He measured the city with the rod and found it to be 12,000 stadia^[c] in length, and as wide and high as it is long. ¹⁷ The angel measured the wall using human measurement, and it was 144 cubits^[d] thick.^{[e] 18} The wall was made of jasper, and the city of pure gold, as pure as glass. ¹⁹ The foundations of the city walls were decorated with every kind of precious stone. The first foundation was jasper, the second sapphire, the third agate, the fourth emerald, ²⁰ the fifth onyx, the sixth ruby, the seventh chrysolite, the eighth beryl, the ninth topaz, the tenth turquoise, the eleventh jacinth, and the twelfth amethyst.^{[f] 21} The twelve gates were twelve pearls, each gate made of a single pearl. The great street of the city was of gold, as pure as transparent glass.
²² I did not see a temple in the city, because the Lord God Almighty and the Lamb are its temple. ²³ The city does not need the sun or the moon to shine on it, for the glory of God gives it light, and the Lamb is its lamp. ²⁴ The nations will walk by its light, and the kings of the earth will bring their splendor into it. ²⁵ On no day will its gates ever be shut, for there will be no night there. ²⁶ The glory and honor of the nations will be brought into it. ²⁷ Nothing impure will ever enter it, nor will anyone who does what is shameful or deceitful, but only those whose names are written in the Lamb’s book of life.


So when people say things that were said towards my status update on facebook of loving a christian song...I stand firm in knowning that I will be fine with My King above all Kings :)


stuck in my head like crazy! I absolutely love this song! ♥ ♥ it ♥ ♥

Hillsong - Turn Your Eyes Upon Jesus - With Subtitles/Lyrics - HD Version

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Hillsong - Turn Your Eyes Upon Jesus - With Subtitles/Lyrics - This Is Our God DVD - HD Version

• Travis Stoltman i dont like it. sounds like every other contemporary christian song. its an easy way to make money. ive actually been thinking of making my own christian music. it takes no talent so it would be pretty easy.
  

  Paige Stoltman but you lack the belief in god and jesus so it wont work well
• Christina Riley Well Travis Stoltman christianity isn't for everyone and no one asked you what you thought of it..I merely was sharing how I felt about this amazing song. The fact that you constantly strive to voice an opinion which is already well known about your disbelief of God is quite sad..in fact I already know that you don't believe in God I however do..so it would be very nice if you could keep your snide remarks and mockery to yourself..if my posts are bothering you then you should just unfriend me..problem solved. Paige Stoltman I agree without a belief in God his "christian music" wouldn't go over well.
• Travis Stoltman hahahaha
• Travis Stoltman since you are my friends wife, ill sit this one out. just remember that the bible tells Christians that they will be mocked for their beliefs. just see me as a test of your faith. also, this is facebook, not fucking church.
• Paige Stoltman i feel like i can rightfully voice my opinion as you do... that doesn't make it sad. you post these things openly allowing people to comment on them so if you don't want people to share their opinions on what you post then you shouldn't post it. granted i do believe that you have the rights of respect but you have no right to say that my opinion is sad when i could just as well think the same thing about yours.
• Travis Stoltman i meant no offense towards you personally, just garbage music.
• Christina Riley I was talking to travis....and travis knows that he is being rude its very simple keep rude remarks to yourself I don't bash on your pages about things you say that I don't agree with..but its ok you won't have to worry about it any longer...sorry I have offended either of you..Not to worry this will not happen again.

What truly saddens my heart is to know that although these people are nice they will not be with me and mine.

Subjucation of Laughter

This tribulation consuming me from the inside out is torment. Yet I try to subjugate it with laughter and happiness yet this is my demise. The tomfoolery will not rid me of what ails me...it will be my captor and the ever alluding pain will be my demise. This of course is the reality of my circumstances and as it pains me to say this I hope that one day it will not be true. I only hope that someone will be my salvager. This is silly to worry on now for we should live in the present and not the future but this alluding irritation will by my never ending reminder.

My Jesus, My Savior,
Lord, there is none like You;
All of my days
I want to praise
the wonders of Your mighty love.


My comfort, my shelter,
Tower of refuge and strenght;
let every breath, all that I am
never cease to worship You.


Shout to the Lord, all the earth,
let us sing
power and majesty, praise to the King;
mountains bow down and the seas will roar
at the sound of Your name.
I sing for joy at the work of Your hands,
forever I'll love You, forever I'll stand,
nothing compares to the promise I have in you.

By:Michael W. Smith

His words could not be more right...thank God for these reminders ♥

Early AM Contemplations

It is funny how at certain points in your life time can fly by and then at others it can crawl by...this is so interesting, you can be busy or not at all and it can vary so drastically. It is amazing how you could be doing absolutely nothing but be with the ones you love and time will fly by but yet when you are apart the time goes by at snail speed. If only there was a way to control those snail times! I currently am going through the fly by time I have no idea where this past month has gone...I suppose it will start to slow up once the holidays past. We shall see I personally hope that this next year flys by so it can be next thanksgivign and christmas hahahaha! I hope everyone has the most amazing holiday season full of cheer and good times! I can't wait for our turkey day celebrations to celebrate with all our new friends we have made here and to help spread a little cheer for those whom can't go home for this holiday I know how hard it is for everyone to deal with being without your family on the holidays!

The Devoted

No one ever said things would be easy this much we know. We know going into things that there will be hardships and there will be loneliness but you never truly know how hard and how lonely it can be. Who says we will not make it? Who says we will not be stronger for it? We know what we have to do and we work hard every day to make each second count. Be wary that there may come a time when your loved is gone or perhaps lost but do not forget that you knew in the beginning that this might happen. Make every laugh count and cherish those special times together because in the end all we have is today. We know not what tomorrow might bring but yet we still plan for our future. The question is who will it be in this future to make a life with? These are the thoughts of those lost on the sea of being a devoted military wife.

This is the Best time of my Life

He is my wondeful everything and these past few weeks have been amazing. Yes we really haven't done much but does it matter if you are doing a lot or a little? I'm sad to see it all end but I knew it would have to eventually. I couldn't ask for a better other half. I'm contemplating what I will do when he goes back haha. I think a lot of treadmill work and painting is going to be in order. Perhaps I shall go on a photography adventure or go exploring in Seattle the options are endless. This will be a time for me to work on me and for us to grow. These difficulties are what make us stronger and in the end we will be better off in more than one way. Lets just say I'm trying the whole glass half full perspective this go around...hope I can keep it all up! :)

Fatal Web

Like a scorpion she attacks always ready for her fatal blow.

He quickly gets wrapped up in her tangled black widows web of sticky substances.

She is quick to strike and even quicker to bring you down.

She cares only of herself...

Her optimal goal of deceit and lies.

How is she so cunning...

So sneaky sweet?

Due to his inept ability to see...

Blinded by love and darkness, this is how she traps him.

She strikes quickly, he never sees it.

She strikes with a fierce force of a tidal wave....

Wiping everything and everyone out in one quick sweep.

Nothing compares to her darkness ever so sweet and wicked.

Nothing can bring her tangled webs of lies and venom to the bright beaming light.

Nobody can resist, she seems so kind...

But with a quickness you are gone.

One blinding gaze and you are hooked, on her fatal web of condemnation.

A Journey

My life thus far has been a journey of unknown certainties. Every time you think you know what to expect and get settled in it only turns out to throw one loop after the next. This has constantly made me more and more aware of myself. I really thoroughly enjoy what I'm learning about myself. My studies have shown me the type of person I've changed into as well as more ways that I can better myself. I love what I'm doing in my life right now. I know that I can get through anything now. These facts are just that facts of me. I am certain I will finish my studies even if it puts me so far into debt that there is no return. There is a certainty now that I am doing what I was born to do. There is a certainty now that I will help many and a shower of bliss rains down and sooths any stresses of the days.